My shocking and most exciting news of the week! :):)

So last night, May 30 our whole family was home...Wes and Jana had come up from Toronto for my profession of faith, and Brad and Jac came for a visit after dinner. We were just all talking and laughing..admiring Jac's absolutely adorable and soon to be burst baby bubble when Dad said, " well that's not going to be the only new baby in the family."
We all shut up.
"WHAT?!..Dad, ummm..what do you mean?"
"Well, mom's expecting, and you're all going to have a new brother or sister" (something along those lines..I was completely in shock I may have mixed up some words :)
"Ok, very funny Dad...MOM'S HAVING A BABY?!"...same response..all around the room.
After a flood of laughter and tears and disbelief, we kind of just sat there...trying to take in the fact that there was going to be a precious little baby who would be joining our family, Lord willing in December. Christmas baby :)
So I guess now begins a whole new chapter in all our lives. It will be a really big adjustment for sure...alot more responsibility due on my part because I'll be the oldest at home...at times it might be hard, maybe frustrating...but I mean, a BABY?! That's pretty much one of the most amazing things to ever receive! I'm so excited..I really am.
Just pray for my mom though...that she would keep up this "absolutely no symptoms" thing, and that her pregnancy would be smooth..and that the baby will arrive healthy in God's time :):):)


So ya, that's my exciting news...super exciting news :)

Man, I'm going to have a new niece or nephew AND a new brother or sister (hopefully twin brothers..hehe..:D)...I love babies :)<3

just a few of my very dear friends who make my life that much more interesting <3

wow, wow, and WOW!

I can't believe 12 years of schooling are over for me!

I'm done..!!!!!!

I just can't believe it..:D

Just when you think everything's good...

Who knew life could be so confusing?

The end in sight...

I can't believe that when I finish my last essay next week...that's going to be the last essay of my elementary/highschool years. I still remember sitting on the couch in our old house, doing read-alouds with mom. Being distracted by the story that Jac was writing, or the spelling words Wes was reviewing. When my birthday present for my third birthday arrived a day early on August 17, 1995, there was one more distraction...a real live little dolly named Cheryl. I remember the field trips that we used to take, like when we went to a butterfly conservatory..and then a bird sanctuary where a despicable bird pooped on my hand. Opa used to take us down to the pond by his old house and tell us about every little detail...he helped me catch hundreds of little frog eggs for my science experiment and explained what would happen and what to watch for...(he failed to mention the fact that one of those tadpoles ATE every singe other tadpole so I was left with only one at the end, who also died..cause of death: indigestion).
I remember struggling so much with math in grade 7 and 8. Mom was so worried about me entering highschool because I kept having corrections and having to redo countless lessons..there were alot of tears I can tell you that. I remember Jac always making fun of my writing..the hard feelings didn't last very long however, because I thought it was the funniest thing that I ALWAYS beat her in spelling bees :D...(still not sure about the hard feelings on her side though, because it wasn't as though I quietly won and left it at that...no way :P)...I'm a Kroesbergen.
Trying to juggle music and school and work...usually ended up in me complaining about being too busy and not having enough time for my friends and fun things. That was the beginning of highschool, with still four years to go...not exactly off to the greatest start. However, much to my mother's pleasant shock of surprise, I actually started passing my courses! Sure they weren't high 80's and what not, but I was passing..with more than a 60%! Memorizing a list of 20 scientific terms per test for chemistry...not my forte, trying to figure out advanced math equations..not my forte either :P I really started to love writing, doing English assignments..mostly because that was the only thing that I got really good marks in :D I guess these past couple of years in highschool have probably been the ones where I improved the most. But my early years, I think were my favorite. Mostly because everyone was home, we did everything together: swimming, gymnastics, track and field, soccer, bike rides down the rail-trail...those were amazing memories, ones that will stick with me for the rest of my life.
My mom has had such a huge impact on my life. She's the one who taught me for these past 16 3/4 - almost seventeen years. She had to put up with my moody days, my not so smart days (rather frequently I might add), my tears...through everything, she always encouraged me to do my best, and that's all that mattered. Mom and Dad never pushed me to always be on top, to always have to win everything and get the best marks, all they wanted was for me to try my hardest and to enjoy what I was doing. They pressed into each one of us the importance of doing everything we do, to the honor and glory of God and to use our gifts for that purpose.
So anyways, thus ends my ramblings for today...I was just feeling a little bit overwhelmed, so I decided to write about it :)


(as enjoyable as school was, :P I think being done will be a whole lot more fun...:D)

it's shiny, it's big, it has my name on it :D...

My first and only trophy :)

For her...

Dear Jacinda,

I love you.

<3 me

Again...

So I'm going to ask you for prayer again...I hope that's ok.

It's for a different reason though.

May 31, Lord willing... I'm going to be making a public profession of faith. I'm going to take the liberty of asking you to please pray for me..that I would be a real and true godly example to those who I come in contact with, and that I would be a faithful witness of the incredible grace and love of our God.

Thank you so much!

<3 me
P.S. feel free to come, I would love all the support, and just being with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ..it's an amazing thing!

finished :D

Exams are done!

what a relief :)

examsss :S

Ok, so I have this three-hour long Grade 4 Counterpoint exam this morning at 9:30...and Grade 5 Analysis tomorrow afternoon. I'm not completely comfortable with the material I'm going to have to write, so I'm gonna take the liberty of asking you to pray for me...to take away any distractions so I can focus on what I'm writing and end it well. 

I'm nervous :(

P.S. Thank you so much! Your prayers are most appreciated I promise!

Peace

So right now, I'm sitting out on the deck...surrounded by papers and papers and...papers. :P I have  two music exams this week so that's pretty much the extent of my days until then...I need a break though, so I'm thinkin' about doing some writing..for pleasure :)

    I was just thinking...what does it really mean to be a daughter of the King? I was asked recently if I knew for surethat I was going to Heaven, how I know that I'm a Christian. To be honest, I had to think of how to answer that. I guess for those who haven't experienced the incredible gift of salvation, it might be harder to understand where I'm coming from, but for those who are my brothers and sisters in Him, know exactly what I'm saying. 

   For me, it was a sermon one Sunday, on the crucifixion. Just think for a minute about the fact that it was you..it was me, who put a perfect, a holy, an only Son of God on that cross. He was PERFECT! The amazing thing that I still have trouble comprehending fully (and I think I always will) is that God SENT His only Son, Jesus, begotten of His Father, to bear all the sins of His people on His shoulders. We're talking total and complete sinners, people with absolutely no little bit of perfectness in us, nothing that could possibly be worthy of God's grace. The only thing that we really deserve here on this earth is death. But still, Jesus lifted those sins off our shoulders and took them on His own to show us righteous in God's eyes. That's the only way we have access to the Father...that's the only reason we can bow our heads and fall down on our knees in humble reliance on Him alone.

Is that not incredible?

It's kind of hard to fully explain but I think a lot of you know what I mean. There's this peace that lives inside of you. It's this sense of giving everything into His hands and trusting that He'll lead you on and lift you up. You just know.

Romans 15:3

Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

musical high no more...

I'm exhausted...as in utterly and most completely exhausted.

But...my weekend at AOC was amazing, as always.

Music is such a blessing, and God's giving that gift to us is one of the most incredible things. I met a ton of people this weekend with some pretty amazing musical talents, and the awesome part of it all, was that we were all there together to sing...not for us, not for the parents and friends who came to watch, but for the One who created that beautiful gift of music.

*happy sigh* :))

I NEED SLEEP!